Regrets...

why did i have to skate in for the second time??? i kept telling myself that i cannot cause another injury anymore cos i will be removing the implant from my right wrist soon.. but i dont know what made me try again... and now, its my left wrist that suffers, or i shld say both left and right... i really dont know what to do now... my whole family is affected because of my second injury... my mum was scolded by my grandma, my uncle too, my aunt too... skating is my passion and interest, i wouldnt bear to give it up, but i'm afraid i must do that... and because of my previous injury, i had to give up basketball and badminton as well... i'm afraid that i wont be able to do any sports after this... and not only this, my passion for photography might be lost... my right wrist is alredy stiffer than before, and even after my left wrist heals, it will also not be the same previously... and i dont know how it will affect me in the future... but at least, i hope i'll still be able to keep my interests which are not related to sports... i'm trying very hard to be as optimistic as possible, but it's so damn difficult for me to do so right now (after going through the first injury)...i wouldnt want to give up all my interests, but i dont want to let my family worry about me anymore... but right now, the only thing that i can do is to pray that my injury will not worsen like the previous one and make me opt for surgery... i hope that i'll hear good news from the doctor when i go back to the hospital next thurs...